A Letter to My Newborn Son

Sweet Cru Ryan,

Finding the words to express how I feel about you is not easy. Let me start by saying how perfect you are! I could spend every second smelling your baby scent, touching your tiny hands and feet, and stroking your fragile face. Every time I look at you my heart aches with happiness, how the little things in life that mattered don’t mean a thing to me anymore.

You are our everything!

So, to you, I thank you for you have forever changed me.

I promise…

And to you, my son, I make these promises:

Sometimes I don’t really know what I am doing, but I promise to always try my best. I promise to always put you first – forgive me when I fail! I promise to do my best to keep you safe. I promise to always make you smile. And when there are tears instead, I promise to be the one to wipe them away and comfort you.

I will be the one to cuddle you when you feel scared, to hold your hand when you feel sick, to read just one more book to you when you can’t fall asleep. I will watch you take your first steps, hear you speak your first words, be there on your first day of school. And, when it’s time to let you go, I will be the one to wave goodbye, and to watch you become a man.

I love you beyond the depths of the sea. I love you beyond the galaxies in the sky. I will never stop loving you. I will always be your biggest cheerleader, believing in you and encouraging you. I can’t wait to see who you will become and what you will choose to be. I can’t wait to watch your personality and character form and come alive.

Every night I pray that you will be healthy, strong and safe. I pray that you know how loved you are by those around you… especially by me and your dad! Even if I am not present, my heart will always be there with you.

Cru Ryan, you are the best thing I’ve ever done. I am so honored to be your mom. It is my greatest joy!